As I reflect on my first semester as graduate student I can't help but think about how much my life has changed. Leaving my family, full-time job and moving 1,000 miles away from home to be a full-time student has been quite the experience. Before starting school my life was about working, relaxing, spending time with my family and going out. I stressed about things like what to wear, where to go out and work. Living at home I had very little privacy but I never felt lonely. I remember vividly sitting out back watching kids play outside, enjoying the scent of a barbecue grille burning and seeing familiar faces pass by.
My life now consists of reading, writing papers, staying up late and drinking redbulls. I find myself stressing about school, not having enough money and being away from my family. As a graduate student I often reflect on life, purpose and meaning. Life is up and down and unexpected at times but I am learning to appreciate it all. I love being around people who are inspiring, I enjoy attending campus events and listening to great speakers. Being in this environment pushes me to succeed and provides me with a glimpse of my desired future.
I work and go to school on a beautiful campus and enjoy the California weather. Yet, I often wonder about home and the people there. I can hear the voice of a single mother calling her kids in to eat or the staggering walks of a drug addict desperately trying to find his next high. I envision the kids playing out back wearing clothes full of dirt and holes in their shoes. My distinct realities often confuse me and force me to conform to my present reality. Here life is so beautiful, grand and filled with endless opportunities. I dream, envision and accomplish. Back home the reality of life keeps me on my toes. I am alert, aware and alive.
Although both worlds seem different, I carry a piece of them everywhere I go. My community is a part of my journey and I never forget where I come from. I breathe history, culture and tradition. I empower, teach, learn, guide and support. I have hope that days will get better, more become educated and rise above and beyond the environments that too often keep us down. I envision a brighter future and a better tomorrow. Whenever I feel like my days are filled with endless stress, confusion and doubt, whenever I feel like complaining or giving up I stop and think of them: my community, my family, my people, my world and I remind myself that things aren't so bad. I walk with my head high and remind myself that my life isn't just about me. Everything that I do, ever action that I take is based on my desire and willingness to inspire and help others.
¡Si Se Puede!
